Meresahkan kembali

Aku kembali menulis nota di sini kerna ada benda yang meresahkan hati.Teringat hutang aku dengan company lama KLIA.9 ribu lebih.Hmm..Aku taknak tulis lagi.Meresahkan..!I dun want my mood swings

Wow!!

Tadi aku masuk battle band!!Kami kalah!Tapi aku puas!!Kami menang sorak!!Huhu.!!Ramai kata kami bagus!!Aku sangat puas hati!!!!!!!!!!Kami tahu kami ada kualiti tp judgers tak mau kasi kami menang!!Biarkan..!!Aku yakin satu hari kalu rajin,band kami akan naik!!!!!!!!!Aku suka giler!!!Rasa puas!!!!Yes!!!!

Masa tidor ku terhad sampai pukul 8 a.m je

Tepat je pukul 8 pg mesti aku terjaga even waktu tidor tak cukup baru je 5 jam .. ishk .. nak lelapkan mata tak boleh dah .. adoi .. ape masalah tu .. ishk !! kawan aku letak je kepala atas bantal .. terus lelap .. ape rahsia nya ? Adoi .. Banyak benda kot bermain difikiran ?Ke kurang oksigen ? Sebab asma aku ni .. Ntah ler...

Hari Sabtu

Lebih suka duduk di rumah.Di rumah pun banyak kerja.Tengok t.v.Sesekali aku mahu pergi keluar saje.Banyak benda yang lebih tertumpu untuk dibuat.Pagi ni pi la pos ubat to siblings.Simple but time taken.Hmm..Nak pack kena cari kotak,kena cek map GD Express kat mana tah.Kang terjah je,tutup buang masa aje.Sib bek dekat ngan rumah.Nak masak keuytiow dulu la.Lapar.Malam kang ada band lak nnt!Chaiyok2!!

My Job

Hi..Today i want to story ler about my job.Hehe..!Sgt best even quiet busy,it is still rewarding and excting.My job nature brings me to all over places locally and abroad.Wow!I just can't beleive my work could be this interesting!It gives me chances to meet new people almost everyday.Making new friends and lots of contacts!

When,I think back,after years of sorrow , sadness , down feeling , it pays me back with exciting.Even the work pace requires me to work in fast mode everyday , i dun hv problem to do that.I keep travelling so it gives me to be observant.Who has chance like me!I'm just loving it!

Thank God!What more i can say..When I think about Rudy,after frequent thought,i decided to strive with him.I will support him because we share the same interest.His passion make myself believe he is the right person that can bring me up..

Sometimes,i knew there are friends that looked down on me.No support even hate what i wish to do.Sometimes,i want my friend to support me always.Sometimes support comes from person that you don't close to.Its ok.My priority is my family.I will invest to them if anything happen to me.No other people.

Friends whether they are close,stranger or light-light , i dun expect them to support me.I dun expect them to be there with me when im in deep difficulty.Sometimes,when i caught in the rain,i dun expect them to be there.I will find my sisters and my mother,originated from the same blood to get help.Because that is the truth.They will worry if i sick.I got fever.They will always by my side.I tried find one in this world.

The best example quoted from this case.When i arrived at Puduraya at 4 a.m.Who is going to attend that time to pick me up?or minor help , would be friend attend to you?I learnt it..No!!!

Actually.from children until now,it can be count with fingers!!I consider myself as a helpful person?Try me!!But why people can't?I don't know?Selfish??Yup!Mostly people will do that!Why??

Because :

Im not his blood!

Im just a friend!

No special relationship!

and im his friends only.

Sometimes i feel so damn tired of thinking.I always attend to them.But them?Hmm..nothing..

Lastly,when i heard word came up from my mother's mouth, "Ko pentingkan adik-beradik ko,kawan-kawan slalu ada waktu senang je.Masalah remeh-temeh,diorang takkan tolong.Percayalah cakap mak ni..ko adik-beradik jangan bergaduh!!"

Maka sampai sekarang,aku akan teruskan pentingkan adik-beradik aku!Then,kawan2 aku yang rapat.Itu aje.

Aku pernah ada bertemu rakan-rakan aku yang betul2 ade ketika aku susah..Siapa?Mereka adalah golongan rakan2 yang sentiasa tanya khabar aku,ada ketika aku waktu susah samaada kecil atau besar,masalah remeh-temeh pun die boleh aje nak bantu,tak berkira ngan aku.

Aku teringat kat Richard,waktu tu aku nak balik kg.Waktu tu,hari hujan renyai2!Aku call semua orang kat kolej U.M.Sume kasi alasan.Tp Richard,aku mintak tolong last minute,dia sanggup hantar aku pi stesen bas.Waktu tu aku terharu sangat.

Selain dari itu,aku slalu mintak Richard tolong amik aku kat stesen bas waktu aku tiba di K.L. seawal pukul 7 pagi.Sape aje yang sanggup bangun pagi ketika hari ahad ketika orang sedap tidor.Richard aje la yg sanggup.Ada sebenarnya kawan2 aku yg mcam tu.Ada.Tp sgt sikit!

Tp aku dah ok je...Aku lebih suke buat sendiri.Senang!Tp kalu kawan2 mintak tolong aku,aku membantu.Sebab aku bukan selfish.Aku bukan camtu.Tp orang selfish akan ku balas dengan selfish.Hmm..Ok la...Tu aje..

Ada list of friends less than 10 considered true friends.But biarlah rahsia!

Menghasilkan template terbaru

Kali ini aku telah mendapat template paling best. I am so truly satisfied ! Ngantok dah tp ada semi-final juara lagu .Tgk la camane.Hmm..Tertido ke?Tak tau?!!

Penat nyer ari ni after sound check and jamming session

Hari ini terbangunlah aku dari lena setelah tertidor petang.Tak siapa mahu kejutkan,terlajak abis-abisan.Adoi.Seriously aku kepenatan giler babeng!Jumaat malam akuada band.Tak sempat pun aku nak jumpa si Kak Cah even die turun ke kl that nite.Thats akibat sekiranya last minute call.Schedule aku pack.Baru-baru ni je,schedule aku pack sbb aku dah start bergiat aktif dalam muzik.

Setelah sesi jamming hari jumaat,dimulakan dengan hujan yang mencurah2.Sian kat Rudi.Naik moto je pi Kelana Jaya.Nak ke Klang,amik die pada aku too jauh la.So aku just terus gerak ke Grido Studio,Kelana Jaya.Until 1.30 a.m bari dapat jamming setelah menunggu Rudi yang tak sampai2.

Seriously talented drummer,Zaf showing his skill on guitar.

Ape perasaan aku skang?Ntah ler.Skang my mental is focused on Soundstage 2010 organized by ROTTW( Battle of The Band).When I knew,band aku last perform sekali,perasaan tu agak malap sikit.Sebab paling last skali.Crowd mesti dah blah.So mungkin energy dah kurang waktu tu akibat kehilangan audience.So aku pun tak nak amik pusing lor.So jamming pun aritu,nyanyi lagu kedua,lagu funk.Hmm..from raut muka Rudi,aku nampak die masih lagi mengagongkan vocalist lama die.Even aku 2nd vox of him,kadang2 terasa gak bile my style being  double-standard.Vocal lama die tu sore besar n high katanye.But aku sore aku kecik and high.Hmm..he demands me to membesarkan sore.Hmm..too many comments sampai aku lemas.Pada aku,the way im singing potray my sincerity.Aku nak buat my own style.Rudy was still being polite on whatever comments given.Thats the way i appreciate him more.

So hari sabtu after woke up,aku mengalami insomnia.Takleh tido smpi pagi.

Insomnia.It potrays me the best!

Rudy pun nak datang umah aku,nak pi soundcheck.Kesungguhan dia membuatkan aku very confident with him.He is so comitted.Pi la jumpa,ketua editor ROTTW.He is organizer.I looked at many bands showed up that petang.Hmm..perasaan gentar takde tp mereka datang ngan technical knowledge on various instruments.Myself..huhu..nothing.Just berbekalkan gitar and natural vocal gifted from God,aku di sini hari ini.

Lepas tu kami balik,naik kete MYVI aku la.Tiba2 Rudi,offer rakam lagu.Vocal die missing in action.Hmm..kenape yer?Dah rakam..but stop halfway.Ntah.Vocal die sedap.But i my inner feeling still believe in my vocal.But Rudi still trust his first vocalist.Terasa menjauh skit lor.Rudi ada cakap kat aku,die boleh kasi aku lagu tu,but tp aku kena invest skit.200 ++.Untuk mix vocal baru,masuk drum,bass kembali.

Im in the rite lane rite now.Hmm..tp dari segi cost tu aku terasa.Sbb tgh sengkek.Kalu boleh aku nak lagu aku.Tapi die ske lagu die lagi.Terlalu banyak.Bila nak masuk lagi aku camtu?Then die demo lagu die.Hmm..aku tak minat..Sbb lagu tu tak sedap la pada halwa telinga aku.Tp die try to convince me lagu tu sedap.Ntah le.Ngan vocal aku lagi.Aku nak kena bawa lagi style yg dia ingini.Die very comitted ngan kerja die.Thats why aku kalu follow die,aku rasa aku akan ok.Tp tu la..Sebab aku ada another option ngan Kohoth. 

Banyak kekangan  betul antaranya :

1. Lagu tu tak sedap pada aku la (major) .

2. Kekangan cost (major) .

3. Then aku kena top that first vocalist of him(minor)

4.Masa dah suntuk die beria2 nak pasarkan lagu tu probably in January if not die cari vox baru ( major ).

So,aku kena pikir cepat.Tp kalu ikut pun,its good for my exposure.Aku tgh plan nak amik course keyboard.Tp kalu buat projek solo vox ni aku ikut,amcam ngan course keyboard aku tuh.Mana nak cekau duit.Sbb nak attend kelas keyborad pun nak pakai duit gak.Hmm..tp pada aku musician kena la ada ilmu nak main music.Tp dari dulu lagi,pencapaian aku dah berbeza.Dulu from scratch,aku dah ada musician yang mau aku follow aku.Its a good accomplished.

Rite now,fokus aku kat show waktu battle nnt!I try to deliver my best.Hmm..macam kata Pak Editor ROTTW,u r not competing with others,but u battle with your inner self...Im taking that as serious challenge...Wish me luck....!!!!!

Raining day in eidul adha

Im not sure why it is hard for me to put some writing here . Im just lazy because when blogging it is better to put longer word to mean the sentence.For grammatical error,who the hell cares?!Put aside your shame and express yourself on whatever!

Ahaks!My thought is kept thinking about band.Sometimes,i feel powerless because to challenge myself to give the best during competing with another 60 bands!To move backward,it is kind of hard at this point when you are tied to obligation .Responsibility and hope are in your hands when everybody expect you to deliver the best!Hmm..I just pray for the best on 28 during our first performance on stage .Give me your STRENGTH!I promise im not let you down!

Hi..its me back in here!

Mmm..I dunno what to say at this point.Actually my mind still pointing at one thing clueless.It is about my participation in a battle of the band.Id been invited by Rudi to join him for this battle.Last Wednesday,myself drove to Jusco Bukit Tinggi.Rudy brought me to a playground nearby.Hmm.then we were practicing about 30 minutes time untill i could remember all the rhythm and the words.That moment was very convincing.I was about to sure myself would join him.Before he left,he said to me,we were going to have another practice hich is today!At this night , no news.Nothing.I can assume at this time possibility not to happen is closed to be truth.Fuhh.. my adrenaline level is dropping from maximum to zero,maybe under par.I can relate it with the case of Noi,our ex-bassist how he left our band with no sound.I think thats how Rudy will do this to me.

As i said earlier,I always believe to have band mates , chemistry plays a significant role to bring the team to certain level.Comitment,hardwork and willingness to sacrifice time and money are major key to success.If no chemistry,all the said-elements wont come no matter how hard i try.So i take a positive mindset,if Rudy doesn't suit me, he has a right to withdraw this comitment.If he doesnt feel comfort at our cooperation,it is better he take this early action.Myself a bit frust because I am comitted but at his side is none.So,i could say,no point i am waiting.

I am a people that beleive if we keep trying , no matter how hard it is,we will succeed.I just need to be patient so that maybe someday there will group of people will rise with me to strike that success.When?I donno.As long as i live,my interest in music wont die.It wont switch off.So just put effort with no regret and giving up, I ll be paid up soon.

So,i am planning with my next project with Kohoth band.I am doing this cause I beleive in someday!

Today's work is considered done!

Im just finished my lab training at civil dept.Mmm..nothing much i gained.just looking around and witnessing myself all the machined used to perform civil testing.Hmm.I looked at all samples mostly concrete type.They tested toughness,flexibility,ease of crack and something like that.Today,my boss is not here.He has a trip to thailand to audit factory for mechanical product.So another boring day.Encik Hisyam as usual has gone to follow his friend as an observer to audit.

Myself find it so difficult to get an auditor to follow.Its because i dun have good cable and powerful link to book them when they go audit.I must follow them in order to qualify myself to be a provisional auditor.This permits myself to audit factory.For Cik Hisyam,it is no problem for him because he'd been here for 7 years.I must admit that he has a very good bonding with all personnel here in SIRIM.He just get senior auditor to follow on last minute search.For me, i need to put aside my shyness by approaching stranger to follow.Which one is easier?Of course En.Hisyam.My worry is i can't challenge him on his fast pace collecting 20 visits of audit session.I just can't challenge him.But ill try my best.But when training,i can't do anything.I dunno how long the lab will take.If it takes short period of time,it is still can't get the auditor to follow because they will go out early in the morning.By right,I must catch them earlier if not ill be left behind because thats the rule.I conclude here,if i got lab,theres no way i can follow them because of my availability is definitely unclear.

Today,i looked at few friends online inside facebook.Sometimes it is a fear to greet them.Human being is created with various interests.I still beleive strongly to have a friend it must align with your thought to share laugh,sadness and point of viewing on certain thing.Then ur conversation will be opened to much wider topics and ull find he is one of favourite person to talk to and seek for help.If it stucks and ends without nothing interesting,so you may consider him as your "light light " fren.

Its been a long time

Its been a long time i don't put any inside this blog.Now,in Deepavali moment,i hv enough space to get myself to blog.Hmm.There are lots of things happen after all this while.One, i managed to get  so-called "life" in SIRIM.Even its hard for me to get that tune.I just mixed around with few colleagues in SIRIM.This is a team  assumed as "sporty" because our gathering majorly happened because of 'playing badminton'.Now i felt so much excitement after a month working here.

There's so much say why people choose to stay in a company even not so much benefits can be earned compared to others.I believe its sometimes true.I prefer to stay in long time because I believe when u r a person with career,its a stability that u crave for.It is not money my major concern.I prefer to have good life with beloved people surrounding me.Others,side income i believe will come later.Money sometimes change people view on ours.This thing could bring urself higher or lower depending on how many u have inside ur account.But for me,money is not everything.Yourself was born to collect points as much as u could to confirm u r the member of syurga or not.To get point so-called 'pahala' u don't have to have money.It's just u to do so much good deeds and how far u r sincere with your AMAL.So don't put so much hunger on Money but u must focus on your Ibadah.Allah will grant you with happiness all the way you towards Him.

I am right now focus on my music.I love my life to be filled with music.Now i got three invitation from 3 bands around K.L. to be their vocalist.Im looking for a band that can suit me which i can click with them,in other word chemistry.I focus on to get myself expert in any instrument.Now I choose keyboard for my next instrument.So i will sign up to get into keyboard class probably in December.In 6 months time,I am expecting to be at least 50 percent progress.

I will also continue my hobby to compose more music.I just love music so much.Im a fan of mine.Why?I dunno.I focus on to have very good link with all musicians out there because my heart tend to bring me there.I wanna be professional musician.If Allah's will always with me , i want to produce more music in Islamic way.Like my fren say,its good to have a career that can mutual benefit both duniawi and syurgawi.It really captures my heart.Sigh!